Musing...

"It should be no surprise that He wants everything in us. We are all His doing, nothing comes into being, has breath, has anything, without HIM, so it follows that our little deaths and tremendous joys should begin and end with HIM. Thus, the orgin of our daily wars.

"My little wars come and go....I fight on the front lines of desire and longings...I pull myself away with head lowered and a heart aching for the power to believe-- that in giving up all of these games, I will not lose a step (as He withholds no good thing).

"I still hear the enemy's shouts, trying to convince me that my retreat is in vain, yet I have chosen somehow (God only knows that at times it's like bridling a bucking bronco!) to keep silent in my world of feeling and dreams, wishes and desires, and to lay them down at the alter of God, walking away believing there are, indeed, higher stakes in all of this than mere desires.

"We both know that seeking to save one's own life is the very thing Jesus warned us not to do. Christ has never told us to seek what we want, He has told us to seek only Himself! I'm finding that this war will rage, I suspect, until my dying day, but I hold onto the hope that it brings me nearer, dearer, closer to Him."

~Taken from Quest for Love by Elizabeth Elliot

posted by Lydia